At 9 am when i started my work in front of the computer the electricity was swithed off.
I dont know even why i started to make this picture.
Probably because i saw my blocknote with the notes from yesterdays MC meeting, when we were laughing, speaking seriously. But only the half of the team, coz so many of us are in different cities. And i miss you guys
Moreover the most funny thing is that all these photos are OLD. they were made in the beginging of our term
When we've just come.
Yours Masha

Lunch talk

Hello again from rainy Vilnius!

We've just come back from very nice place called "White Elephant" - the cafe/pub where almost all food is indian, bartender speaks russian instead of common english and you can find perfect mint tea. During the lumch we started to discuss HIV/AIDS in our countries and found out that 1% estonian citizens are HIV positive, that at least three of MCPs talked to HIV positive people at some conferences/hospitals, that few of us made this virus test.
Why I mentioned it here that very we (AIESECers) pretend to be an experts in smth, but we are not. How many members of AIESEC Russia made HIV test? How much we REALLY know about the virus? Who of us talked at least once to HIV-positive person?

I've got an idea to bring some NGO to National Congress to tell about HIV. Very simple thing to do.
We are talking about war? Let's invite somebody from the army.
What about homeless? Drugs addicted? NGO which works with racism and tolerance?
It's very cool to add "connection time" to the agenda and discuss the topics. But we often have nothing to discuss. Because we have no fucking idea of what is really happenning. Not online.
But every day in somebody's life.

Under my umbrella

As I wrote to LCPs, as I was told million times - "Be there".
I am at EuroCo and I'll be here till 13th October. It means all my "MCP-job" which can't be done by Masha, will stop. Ok, let's accept this fact (althought I'm still nervous) and tell you what is happening here.

First, It's extremely cool to feel "not enough professional" - I learn faster. It doesn't mean that it's true but the feeling itself make you try more than when it's "safe".
Also I noticed that I'm quite indifferent to all "guru" and "masters" whom I don't know personally. Why? Things they are writing about are obvious. There is nothing new. And when you don't know the story, the context - it becomes meaningless "bla-bla", at least for me. I learn not from the wise thoughts, but from actions, from people who lived a story and share it with me - I learn from them not the "right answers", but the attitude - be brave? be patient? be generous? smile? be ready for everything? They are not necessary very famous, but they are just exist. Here and now.
And exactly this fact (I mean"not enough respect to "guru" and memory for their names & theories") makes me feel "not enough professional". It's easier to use the concept, it's difficult to try, to live...

It's raining in Lituania. I love this weather - it's different to warm Moscow and it makes me feel like in real autumn. 7 months left. 7 months more of MCP experience - the best ever.
It was hard it is still hard. It helps you to discover yourself in hundred different dimensions. For me MCP term is the travel to my true "self" - I have become much more calm, I'd even say "harmonic" person. I still see my failures as the "end of the universe" but now I'll allow myself to try one more time whatever I fucked up. Becuase it WILL be different and I WILL be successful, cause I've learned. I'll fail in other aspects, but it's called "learning" and generally there is no such thing as failure - you are not competing with life or with yourself. You are constantly changing, like a worm - to become a butterfly. And it takes some time and some courage to change certain number of times to get wings. If not enough - you are still worm. Safe but boring.

I'm telling this not because I consider myself as looser and try to find an excuse - not at all - but only this year I understood the concept I described above and still exploring it. And what's the most amazing thing, I've got my lost "it's not enough for me" feeling again! But the difference now is that... it's about experience to live, people to meet, things to try, but not "get new status" or "be elected for the certain position". Focusing on experience I'm sure that there is no way not to get it if you want.

Nastya

Random hour

Wohooo!

I managed to find 15 minutes to create devil's dozen blog:) But I need a bit more time to start posting:)

Coming soon!

Nastya. MCP.